Falling apart
It seems everything is falling apart in my life. My marriage, my schooling, my health. It just seems to be getting worse and worse. I dont think im going to be able to cope with everything. Im living with my mother until I can get a place to stay and divorce my Husband. My 2 yr old son is stuck in the middle of things and I just want to break down and cry every time I see him. I took a leave of absence from school so I could deal with the move and I had tons of Dr appts. to go to. I had an abnormal pap and the Dr believes its precancerus. I have to go next week for a procedure called colposcopy? I have to wait and see how that turns out. Keep in mind im 22, I have to have yearly mammograms due to tumors I get in my breasts. I have one coming up the 23rd of this month, my Dr found some rather large lumps and said i needed to have one done just in case. Im freaking out about that. I have to go the 30th of this month to see a Psychiatrist. I went the 12th for an intake appointment, but I didnt need to be hospitalized, so they just told me to come back. On top of everything, I have a slight worry that I might be pregnant. And thats the last thing I need or that my Husband wants. With everything between us and my health, I couldnt possibly handle another child! As im writing this im crying, and it feels like my heart is breaking, and I dont know what to do. Maybe this rant will help me...
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As hard as it may seem try to remain hopeful that things will get better. Positive thoughts tend to produce positive results.