fake it til you make it might be working
I'm feeling better today. That very well may just be my swings coming up or maybe it's me just moving on with my life that's helping to pull me out. Wish I knew one way or the other for sure. I had taken a leave of absense from my online classes and just started back up again yesterday. It felt good to be back doing homework and interacting with the other students. I'm a total social butterfly by nature and I think my self inflicted isolation has been hurting me more than helping.
We've been doing decent at keeping the house clean. My kids are doing their best to destroy it faster than we can clean it, but I think we're winning for today.
I'm reading some spiritual books and actually working through them instead of just reading them to pass the time. I think that's really helping. I made a gorgeous altar in my bedroom with a statue of Isis at the center. It's a little statue, but still pretty awesome. When I find my camera I'll take a picture of it and post it here.
I'm reading a book called "Sexy Witch" (have you figured out yet I'm pagan?). It's a pretty interesting book. I was hyper sexual as a teenager and my early twenties and then dropped off as I got older. I'm hoping this book will help me get some of that back. My husband takes it so personal when I don't want to be intimate with him and it has nothing to do with him.
I'm also reading a book on Goddess worship, sort of like a year and a day type workbook. Then I'm reading the 21 Lessons of Merlyn. That's an awesome book. It has memorizing in it though and my memory sucks. The books all seem to go nicely together when read all at once. These are helping me to keep spiritually minded through all the crap I'm dealing with. I'm pretty sure that's the only way that I'm going to make it through this.
We've been doing decent at keeping the house clean. My kids are doing their best to destroy it faster than we can clean it, but I think we're winning for today.
I'm reading some spiritual books and actually working through them instead of just reading them to pass the time. I think that's really helping. I made a gorgeous altar in my bedroom with a statue of Isis at the center. It's a little statue, but still pretty awesome. When I find my camera I'll take a picture of it and post it here.
I'm reading a book called "Sexy Witch" (have you figured out yet I'm pagan?). It's a pretty interesting book. I was hyper sexual as a teenager and my early twenties and then dropped off as I got older. I'm hoping this book will help me get some of that back. My husband takes it so personal when I don't want to be intimate with him and it has nothing to do with him.
I'm also reading a book on Goddess worship, sort of like a year and a day type workbook. Then I'm reading the 21 Lessons of Merlyn. That's an awesome book. It has memorizing in it though and my memory sucks. The books all seem to go nicely together when read all at once. These are helping me to keep spiritually minded through all the crap I'm dealing with. I'm pretty sure that's the only way that I'm going to make it through this.
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