failed vs. relapsed

I decided that even though I 'failed' again, I would call it 'relapsed'.  Somehow that feels less judgmental and forgiving, and shaming, but more hopeful.  However, since I decided to call it relapsing, I thought what the heck and went ahead this afternoon and didn't even try an alternative behavior.  I thought this way I can indulge my SI whenever, because I can call it 'just relapsed' instead of failed.  Anyone out there??  Does this make sense?