Failure

@$%&# I just want to scream right now!!!  All I wanted was to go to Florida tomorrow looking halfway decent, but I look the worst I've looked in a long time.  Eyebrows-almost all gone, eyelashes-tons of gaps and very short where there are lashes.  All I want to do is cry now.  I look terrible :(  This last relapse has been really really bad for like the last week.  I had been doing well or only minor relapses for the last few months, now I feel like a complete failure.  Now I'm stuck with how I am for a long while until they grow back (assuming I don't do any more damage).  Just really upset with myself right now.