F\'cked

Yet again!!!!  What in the hell is wrong with this system?????  I have jumped through me hoops.  I have done the next right thing.  My day of vindication was at hand.  I was going to get to see my kids again for the first time in almost a year.  Postponed again.  Why??  Why does the court so quickly take away and care little if the children ever get back  me.  The lawyer on the other side had a pressing issue that day in Galveston county!!!  Who gives a shit!!!!  This day has been on the books for two weeks after 11 months of no visitation after countless stalling and other bullshit from my ex wife's side.  The system is one fucked up piece of shit.  I know I will get my visitation back but come on??  What is the point in a system like this??  My ex has systematically alienated me from my children.  The courts have been her tool.  Has anyone ever questioned why???  The court appointed Dr. recommended vistation from day one.  It has never happened.  Do yo think the judge will admonish her for that??  Hell no!!!  She knows good and well I have not been drinking.  She in asked for a test back in May, which by court order she would have to pay for if I was clean.  I was clean, she never paid for it.  I still did not get to see my kids.  I know I only can take care of my problems.  MY PROBLEM IS A RENAGADE EX WIFE WITH A FIST FULL OF DOLLARS FROM THOSE NEGELGENT MONSTERS SHE CALLS PARENTS!!!!!!  I thought she did what she did because she cared about the children.  As each stalled event has occured, my faith in her reasons has diminished.  I only ask God to forgive her for her selfishness and the harm she has caused the children in her attempts to hurt me.  I am not at a point yet to forgive those lousy sobs she calls parents though.  That is a resentment I must work on.  My Lord knows what he is doing.  I can only wait, watch and pray!!.  If you believe, please pray for my children and I.