extension number ? i dunno..i'm losing track at this point

Well I was in a pretty good mood until about now. I kept the money worrying out of my mind out for the most part all month..I put it off until the last minute, I kept it in the back of my mind, the worst part of the worrying anyways. I still thought about it the productive part I kept that in the fore front by going to RI to try and sell some of my stuff, no bites yet, but I'm still hopeful. But now after my long term disability people have now told me their sending me yet another 30 day extension letter I'm yet again in tears, when is this ever gonna end. I'm back to shutting my bedroom door so my gram doesn't see me cry. Scribbling down figures trying to figure out how I'm gonna make it yet again, so sucks. I was mentally doing so well too. I'm not as bad as I once was don't get me wrong..I never want to be that way again..never never never..I swore to myself that would never happen. I'm just sad that I feel like these extensions are just never gonna freaking end like these people are literally just busting my balls or something, like they get their kicks off of it or something. What the hell am I gonna do? I only have so much stuff to sell? And my meds are running out, I have taxes and bills to pay, I can't ask my dad cause he's getting laid off in 2 weeks. I have no rides for my doc appts this week and I have to somehow get there..I'm tempted to drive myself, I can but I'm not supposed to but should just do it but can't afford the gas, ugh!..gotta love this vicious cycle of life....God sometimes life just isn't fair.