Experience
*SLIGHTLY DESCRIPTIVE and a little long*
I am 18, just turned this year. From the time I was around IDK 1st or 2nd grade to the summer of 2017 and I believe a bit into my senior year, my dad would do bad things to me. Incest. He has had me give him two bjs and tried to force mr into several more... The inside if my lips were a but bruised from my teeth if that's even possible. He has put hus fingers in every hole he can, as well as his tongue... I now absolutely hate mustaches and beards... The last year he tried to do me properly, but only did me in the ass a couple times... When I think if having sex with someone I might imagine a certain person for a minute and then its him and I feel him touching me.... I feel filthy and broken and damaged... I have turned down two guys for that reason, abd that one of them had a beard... I hate it... A 2nd/3rd grader shouldn't know that much about sexual things, and they shouldn't see porn, or gave a small vibrator used on them...
I don't feel like I'm worthy of anyone..
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Wow, that's really bad! I hope there is some sort of restraining order on your dad or that he is now in prison and that you are safe.
arfie says:
'I am a child sex trafficking survivor, a la Happy Days. 50's and 60's. I don't expect to ever be "cured" or "Normal," but have found serenity, gentle humor and even happiness in acceptance and managing the symptoms.' https://www.dailystrength.org/user/profile/22207
You are worthy if you're a kind person. I don't think you'll feel that way for a long time though.
:)