Exhausted
I woke up at 2 am this morning. I was sound asleep until the pain woke me up, it was so bad I had to fight from screaming. I barely managed to get out of the bed as soon as I went to stand I went down, the pain was so bad I could not stand up, I crawled to the bathroom and promptly got sick. I was eventually able to make it to the kitchen were my pills were. I took two hoping they would just knock me out. They did not. I laid there in silent agony, praying and begging for relief. I did not fall asleep, no, I did not pass out until around 5 am. I am so tired today and the pain has not eased up at all, I am trying to work in a druged haze and with being so exhausted I can not stay focused or do anything. My pain has also moved into my back, like it wasn't bad enough to begin with now my lower back is killing me, so now I have heat on my back and my abdomen. I will be so glad when I get fixed and can have more pain free days, at least I am hoping for this, I think that is the only thing keeping me from just letting myself fall into the total deep dark hole of depression, right now I am clutching the side of the hole.
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Hey Kendra, I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I know how pain and depression go hand in hand. I am working with my family doctor now to find the right medication to help me with the mental effects of everything. I am feeling better, but I do have bad days still, and it takes it\'s toll. I have low energy lots of times and sadness that comes in waves and sometimes it\'s too much for one person to handle. I hope you are feeling better soon, and you can rest over the weekend. xoxo