Ex Parte

I'm hate the thought of going to court for the Ex Parte,I know shes just doing this to hurt me and make me look bad. I fell into her trap and I made the mistake and let my emotions get the best of me when I found out who the OM was and how long it had been going on. I was hurt and angry and said things I shouldn't have but after 23 years of my life put into the marriage I felt like I had nothing to lose. I just want this to be over but I think she will always find a way to make life hell for me. Shes mad at me because she said she lost her kids and church from all this, but she's the one that made the choice to do what she did. Nobody forced her to cheat and lie and when she has to pay for it she takes it out on me.