everything seems to b going upside down :\'(

its been a while since i last wrote one of these..........well things have got worse.....and worse......and worse......i got into a fight a couple of days a go and got beat up!!if im honest i have been feeling like shit....everythings going wrong..life just seems to get worse!!so many people have told me to be strong....and they have told me that life will get better but it hasnt.. im sick of staying strong because right now i feel like giving up and ending it all!!it wud b for the best for everyone....why cant i live a normal life like a normal person cuz lets face it im not normal and i never will be!!why does it have to be me that gets put thru all this shit.maybe if i spoke to someone before all my problems got out of hand all this cud have been avoided... maybe it is my fault!! i will never know x