Everything is messing up

My husband is replacing our roof because we cant afford to have someone do it.  The door bell rang and the buiulding inspector is there saying I have to have a permit.  Why does the town have to take money from me to do something that has to be done to my own home.....  Then it began to rain and raing hard, even though it showed no rain today.  It is still raining.  My huusband is stuck in traffic trying to pick up the machine to blow insulation in our attic since ther eis barely any there and our electric bill was $350 this month.  I feel like everything is crashing down on me.  We had to pay more for tool rentals as the job is taking longer than expected.  Now we have to pray we can finish it tomorrow and the insulation, because the machine has to be returned tomorrow.  And when he makes it home we have to go pay more money at the inspectors office.  I thought I would be able to get our licenses done and the tags on the car, now we cant afford it. It feels like everything is going wrong.  I screamed and smashed my pen, threw a few things...  Then I began to make phone calls in hopes to buy more time - but of course that didnt work.  My husband will have to call into work tonight to get things done.  There is more money lost. I feel like no matter what I do crap just keeps happening to me.  I try so hard to get through the days and not panic or feel horrible with my anxiety.  I hate it here.  It feels like no one cares.  I wish I could of stayed in Southern Illinois.  Atleast there everyone listened and helped if they could.  To help my husband I need to go pay this permit.  That means I need to drive the car.  I am terrified.  Its hard for me to drive - PANIC!  And its raining, my son died in the car accident when it was reaining and now I dont like being in a car when its raining.  If I make it there, I am sure I will be crying and freaking out.  Here goes nothing.......