Everything is messed up.

I'm so tired of nothing ever geting better. I'm tired of all three of you making waking up difficult. I wish that I could ghost you all but I know rationally that wouldnt fix anything; it would undoubtably make this all worse. Why cant you all see that what you're doing is killing me. Why did things have to end up this way, its all so messy. I'm drowing in everyones shit, it's like you think that I cant see through all the mind games that you're putting me through? All I want is for everyone to be happy, but I dont know how to make all three of you happy at once, no matter what someone is going to hurt. I hate myself so much it might as well be me. At this point I feel like I'm better off dead anyway.