Everything is a blur.
As the title reads, "everything is a blur" I realize what is bothering me. The one person I thought I could trust slipped away from me. I don't like having a lot of people being near me. Everytime I am in track streching or warming up by jogging people will always come and talk to me with there friends and stuff, and I feel awkward, almost to say, "You don't know the real me so why are you talking to me about stuff that I don't understand" Is it normal to feel this way? Because now it just feels like I want to push people out of my life. I had the choice of going camping with my friends, but I passed that up because I had to go to track practice. I know they had so much fun. While I am stuck here trying to figure out what I can do with myself. I don't know where to go anymore to hide my pain. Everytime I go to the beach now it reminds me of all the good times that I can never have anymore. I can't just sit down and find comfort. I want to just get away somewhere, where there is no people so I can just figure out what I am trying to do. I guess being around people is fun sometimes, but not when I am trying to focus on stuff. Thats the only reason why I want to go away. So I can escape the insanity. =[
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Some days I really don\'t want to be by anyone. I think its normal =/
Hey. at least its not all the time.
true haha. I don\'t want to be completly anti-social =] Thank you Audg! =]
its absolutely normal.i feel this way a lot.
i feel the exact same way most days
but there is one thing i\'ve learned
you can\'t always blame them for not knowing \"the real you\"
you have to let them know the real you
and when they come over and talk to you
they\'re trying to get to know the real you
but if you push them away
then it becomes your fault that they don\'t know the real you
because you won\'t let them know the real you...
that\'s just something i\'ve come to realize over time....