Everything I do I think of that asshole
Before this week, in everything I do he's always on my mind.
Now, this week he's always on mind plus the bitch and all the things that were right in front of me but I chose to believe him when he said he wasn't cheating. That's an even worser feeling yet. To be lied to.
I think of this everyday now. It's always on the back of my mind, I feel it in my core and at my fingertips. I haven't listened to the radio in 2 months. Any type of music is too emotionally stimulating. I've been driving in silence on my hour commute home. And even then, I still hear him and her. I hate him. I want him suffer emotionally and mentally just like how he had done to me for 5 years. I want him to feel what I feel.
I know these entries will end eventually. I hope in 6 months to a year's time I will have motivational or joyful stories to share.
Until then ..there's nothing else I have to think about.
Now, this week he's always on mind plus the bitch and all the things that were right in front of me but I chose to believe him when he said he wasn't cheating. That's an even worser feeling yet. To be lied to.
I think of this everyday now. It's always on the back of my mind, I feel it in my core and at my fingertips. I haven't listened to the radio in 2 months. Any type of music is too emotionally stimulating. I've been driving in silence on my hour commute home. And even then, I still hear him and her. I hate him. I want him suffer emotionally and mentally just like how he had done to me for 5 years. I want him to feel what I feel.
I know these entries will end eventually. I hope in 6 months to a year's time I will have motivational or joyful stories to share.
Until then ..there's nothing else I have to think about.
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