Everyday I'm getting weaker.

Maybe I am just a dreamer, I had a feeling like I needed her so bad. Well now that I know that she will never be in my arms again I have to start all over again. I thought that women was a keeper everything we did and all those fun times...damn it feels so good to think back on them, but once I realize that it's all over the happiness ends and I am stuck with empty feelings and a broken heart. When your lonely things seem so long for like eternity. Everyday I'm getting weaker but I will keep fighting until I am no longer lonely. I'm just sitting back wondering if I will ever love again, hoping a girl will just give me a moment of her time, but I was never one to approach women and ask them things, I am so shy maybe thats the reason why I am not having success, but there is nothing I can do. This is how I am the very quiet and stand-offish type. I feel like I am lacking confidence, but how can I be confident when I have been rejected my whole life, I lost all my relationships that I cherished so very much because I was into drugs I wish I could re-do my high school life there would be a different ending to it all I wouldn't be a loser trying to be cool and get into drugs just to fit in, who knows I can what if all day long in the long run this is the hand I was delt with so I just have to keepon playing. I should focus my mindset on being happy and just thinking positive about my future even though it looks so gloom.