Evenings

I hate evenings.  i have to figure out what to do about that.  I dissociate a lot.  I feel alone.  I feel too tired to do the things I would occupy myself with in the morning.  Maybe I should paint.  Let's see if I can make a  list of things to do in the evenigns - not including TV or computer.... 
 
play piano
paint
read
listen to books on tape
journal
make cards to send to friends
sudoku et al (I've got lots of puzzles)
knit/crotchet/sew
listen to music along with any of the above
 
any other ideas???
 
These still might trigger dissociation.  Anything 'fun' or 'relaxing' sometimes leaves me dissociating when I'm done.  Doesn't that suck?
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I'm going to hobby lobby or michael's tomorrow.  Time to buy more paints.