Evening 01/09/2014
So far today the chronic pain has been mostly mild this evening. It was pretty nasty early this morning and part of the day. At least I have the derm appointment set for next Tuesday.
I'm a bit concerned that when I stopped taking the Klonopin for a few days the anxiety started to return. My doc said you can only take it for a short time as it loses it's affect. Hopefully we can come up with a solution during the Jan 22 visit. One dumb thing after another.
Saturday I'm going with my friend to visit his mom in the hospital. She has diabetes and is having issues with her foot. Poor thing is basically stuck in the house all day. I hope she gets out soon but they said 3 weeks.
Hopefully I'll have a mild pain day that day. I'm so tired of having to build my life around my level of pain for the day. How the hell did I end up like this?
Hopefully I can keep my mental health up. I want to get back to therapy but I need this pain thing resolved as it's all I can think about. I'm sure my mom it tired of hearing me talk about it. I try to avoid the subject but it's not easy.
Anyway, after 2 nights of zero sleep I hope to at least get a few hours tonight. Tomorrow I have to work and go to the grocery store. I still hate going to the grocery store. The people are all nice and it's not that busy it's just doing anything outside of the house seems to be getting harder to do. I know that's not a good thing. If I can get this pain under control I think I can start feeling more comfortable getting out but right now I just want to hide at home and work 7 days a week. At least I'm being productive.
I'm a bit concerned that when I stopped taking the Klonopin for a few days the anxiety started to return. My doc said you can only take it for a short time as it loses it's affect. Hopefully we can come up with a solution during the Jan 22 visit. One dumb thing after another.
Saturday I'm going with my friend to visit his mom in the hospital. She has diabetes and is having issues with her foot. Poor thing is basically stuck in the house all day. I hope she gets out soon but they said 3 weeks.
Hopefully I'll have a mild pain day that day. I'm so tired of having to build my life around my level of pain for the day. How the hell did I end up like this?
Hopefully I can keep my mental health up. I want to get back to therapy but I need this pain thing resolved as it's all I can think about. I'm sure my mom it tired of hearing me talk about it. I try to avoid the subject but it's not easy.
Anyway, after 2 nights of zero sleep I hope to at least get a few hours tonight. Tomorrow I have to work and go to the grocery store. I still hate going to the grocery store. The people are all nice and it's not that busy it's just doing anything outside of the house seems to be getting harder to do. I know that's not a good thing. If I can get this pain under control I think I can start feeling more comfortable getting out but right now I just want to hide at home and work 7 days a week. At least I'm being productive.
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