Even in the Desert Some Rain Must Fall....

I was having a really great friday starbucks on my way to work, Austin and I singing Boogie Shoes he must be the only 10 yr old who loves cool and the gang and kc and the sunshine band God I love this kid.. So the kids were all awesome this morning no major melt downs or Kindergarten DRAMA'S to speak of. When it came time for my break I checked my cell phone and you got it 10 text messages all saying two words " Call Me " So since he was picking up Austin at 5 thought I should call make sure that was still the plan. Now last weekend he missed his visit because he was sick. Funny I don't get any time off when i'm sick and he only sees him 4 days a month. But oh well his freaking loss. Now  I don't like breaking the No Contact rule unless it's an emergency like a FIRE OR DEATH hopefully his. So I called him and said What's up? he said is Shelby working tomorrow night? I don't know call her and ask her. I try she won't answer her phone for me. Oh well I can't help you just pick up Austin by 5:30 bye.
Guess he needed to say more cause he kept on calling but I wouldn't answer. So he called my work phone usually my boss just sais i'm in class and takes a message. New teacher answered the phone and came to get me. So I say hello then this piece of toe jam actually sais to me " Hey can you call your sitter and see if I can use her Saturday night?" " WHAT!" I said " Yah I want to go to an 80's party and my friend " Shawna" needs a sitter so she can go. Can you do that for me? I couldn't believe my freaking ears. I said " Excuse me who the HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?" Why don't I just pay for the sitter myself and give you my credit card so you can take her out on me!!!!!! Shut the F@#K up and don't EVER CALL MY WORK AGAIN.
I couldn't even return to class I had another close out for me. When I told my boss she understood and told me to go into one of the empty rooms and calm down before Austin got out of class. I WAS SHAKING AND THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO VOMIT. I came home got Austin ready and when he left I cried and prayed and when Shelby got home I told her why I was crying and she said " Come on mom i'm taking you to the movies" Go get ready ok." We had a good time and by the time we got home the really bad feelings had passed. I must admit it has been a long time since I cried like this I was hoping these days were passed me. Guess I was wrong but tomorrow I will get up and make it the best I can.....