Even here can't be a Christmas hater
I hate Christmas. Just really really despise it, but can't say that. Oh no. You are horrible if you hate Christmas.
Christmas is work, work and more work. Endless shopping, wrapping, decorating, baking... All without help unless you nag excessively, and 95% unappreciated.
Then comes Christmas day and the aloneness. Video games are the only focus of our house and I don't play. So alone I sit every Christmas while they all play and I read or do something. Usually I am in the kitchen, but this year I refused to cook. Yeah me for something.
I turned off my youngest's video game and suggested we play something as a family. Said I would play the hated video games. Got shot down on the first suggestion as one person is sick and it is too active of a game so got told after lunch we'd play whatever I wanted. Next thing I know they are setting up Halo. OMG. A motion sick causing killer game. At best I play Tetris, Dance Dance Revolution or some stupid Carnival type game.
My oldest turns and says oh well maybe we can talk mom into playing Yeah right. Even if I wanted to I can't. Would just be dead the whole time. My husband suddenly gets a clue and says oh maybe we should play something your mom would play. But I see the looks on my son's faces and tell them they have already picked the game and walk off. Been up in my room for an hour now. No one notices. They never do. One of my Christmas presents is usually a book by my favorite author, but this year don't have one.
Why do I buy a book for Christmas? So I have something to do all day while my entire family ignores me for hours and hours on end.
And of course who did all the work for Christmas....ME and who matters the very very least on Christmas ...ME.
I go on here hoping for other Christmas haters and see Merry Christmas after Merry Christmas...No Scrooges out there except me. Yet another way I never fit in anywhere and am always so alone.
Christmas is work, work and more work. Endless shopping, wrapping, decorating, baking... All without help unless you nag excessively, and 95% unappreciated.
Then comes Christmas day and the aloneness. Video games are the only focus of our house and I don't play. So alone I sit every Christmas while they all play and I read or do something. Usually I am in the kitchen, but this year I refused to cook. Yeah me for something.
I turned off my youngest's video game and suggested we play something as a family. Said I would play the hated video games. Got shot down on the first suggestion as one person is sick and it is too active of a game so got told after lunch we'd play whatever I wanted. Next thing I know they are setting up Halo. OMG. A motion sick causing killer game. At best I play Tetris, Dance Dance Revolution or some stupid Carnival type game.
My oldest turns and says oh well maybe we can talk mom into playing Yeah right. Even if I wanted to I can't. Would just be dead the whole time. My husband suddenly gets a clue and says oh maybe we should play something your mom would play. But I see the looks on my son's faces and tell them they have already picked the game and walk off. Been up in my room for an hour now. No one notices. They never do. One of my Christmas presents is usually a book by my favorite author, but this year don't have one.
Why do I buy a book for Christmas? So I have something to do all day while my entire family ignores me for hours and hours on end.
And of course who did all the work for Christmas....ME and who matters the very very least on Christmas ...ME.
I go on here hoping for other Christmas haters and see Merry Christmas after Merry Christmas...No Scrooges out there except me. Yet another way I never fit in anywhere and am always so alone.
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you are not alone ......christmass is a lot of work ..and your family needs to know that they are ...puting all the work on your shoulders and that they need to do there part ...I use to be in this position but my family would ask me if I wanted help and I would say no I was fine ..but it did feel lonely .i dident get to visit enough because I was doing all the work .....now the kids are living on there owen and we go to there houses for Christmas ....so I just visit ...so that is very nice ...but no one comes visit us ....not even on new years ...and since I get so many migrains I am not able to go visiting to much and my h is happy to not visit ..so I am doing ..things I like to do ...crostiching ...painting ..reading ...my h likes to go to coffee with the boys at ..5:30 or 6:00 in the morning ..or traping ..and hunting ....if he goes away for a weakend I have to go stay at one of my children ..home ...or I get way to depressed ...............some how you need to let your family how you are feeling ....maby it will take you to not do any thing and than see what happens .....but don\'t lisen to me ..lisen to your heart ...some times when we do everything for them that is just what they expect ..that is there normal ...that is what has to change ...take care ..God bless