Eve of the eve

well today is thursday. almost christmas eve.  I miss that little angel of mine.  she has grown to be such a part of my life and she has matured so much in the last three months.
I didnt tell my wife she couldnt contact my daughter at all but this no contact is not fair to me.  but it might be a new years resolution.  Hmm have to think about that.
Well i guess my shopping is all done this year.  i was so thankful that my church gifted my daughter with toys and clothes.  I just didnt know what to say.  this was just so overwhelming.  Money is so tight right now and i guess they can hear me squeaking.  5 more days
sheesh