Episode.

Had a bad episode today.  Realizing that I have been on the depressed side of my illness. Fighting with my boyfriend has caused a lot of stress in my life. As I suffer from sleep apnea and I feel asleep with out wearing my CPAP mask I found myself unaware of the oncoming irritability and anger I felt today.  And continued to be miserable for the rest of my day. While my boyfriend did try to apologize to me at certain points it was no use as I was agitated to the point were I did not want to be in my relationship anymore saying things such as I was not worth it and I am not meant to be in a relationship with anyone.  I sat down later on this evening and took a new look at my mental illness. What came to light is medication alone is not going to help me. It's not a manageable way to think.  I have not been eating healthy,meditating, sleeping right or keeping stress down to a minimum.  I did however get some good ideas after reading and realizing that my illness was being effected more so by certain things.  I am going to stay with my group here on DailyStrength, journal, take my medication, start sleeping better, keep a mood log, work out a bit by going for walks and if my boyfriend is interested in helping and supporting me then maybe we can go to counselling together? However I am at this point still feeling down and unhappy. :(