Enuff already... practicein self control

Ya remember while back... I was havin some cheese and crackers...with my Whine....seems like a period of my life when I can't get no respect...I've always enjoyed respect from everyone... except the ones  I most hope will have the most respect for me... Mainly family... children...Well sometimes ya just gotta suck it up....take it right on the nose...grin and bear it..... yepp... just shake it off like a dog shakin off  water...I did... got off my high horsey... got on my three wheel bicycle and rode over to my son's house ...In the mornin  just like he said... It was round 9 am... they was still snoozin.. baby had thrown up all over the bed .... they looked a little ragged .... boy don't that bring back memories... Daughter in law she went an let Gary out of his room... and let me hold the granddaughter....She's so cute... lots of hair...so tiny....snoozin in grumpppa's arms..........I reckon the hardest part about my life is gettin Older...It's so scary at times... things are changin ... the  World around me is  Changin....It's like I don't fit in any more...not my world...and every where I look folks my age are tryin like a bunch of fish swimmin against the flow to stay in the crowd... to be IN... even see the old men with ear thingys... gee like bunch of copy cats... just to fitt in... (don't mean to offend...) Just geeI never was much at Fads....If ya wanna ear ring go fur it..rings on the fingers bells on the toes... me I'm like ....nope aint me.... I wear my own kinda hat..............I realise now...I'm not really ready to share my life with anyone... nope.. all this time being lonely... well it's tuff....Mosty the kind of woman I'd like to share life with...guess he married to someone else LOL...I'm  not good enuff for these Plenty of Fish Ladies.... Funny how after a life time of strugglin thru a system of inflation.. most folks wanna see what's in ya wallet before they even cornsider what is in Ya heart..(tell me that ya want those finer things that money just can't buy..)The old idea of bein in love... Love is enuff... boy.. wat was I tinkin....so hey... I shouldn't be so Long in the face... I still got a son that lives at home and can't fend for himself... He tries... he's good... just no one want to hire him cause he's different... looks little different.. walks little different and thinks  so much different... but hey... He's gett there little at a time...I got a doggy that loves me to pieces.. yeah.. mostly piece of my bacon... piece of  my chicken... she's Loyal as they come ... she shadows me everywhere I go around the house... ...........Mostly at times I forget all the wonderful things I have.... the many blessing that life has givin me... four wonderful healthy Children... seven grandchildrren....A richness that can't be bought or sold... A  Peace at heart....A Faith unrattled by years of  Pain and suffering...Folks oughtta think about what we have...more than what we want...If you pluck one good joyful memory outta of a days worth of sufferin...It's worth more than all  the Gold in the Universe....that one simple joyful memory...is like a gift from God...it's like the finger of the Holy Spirit that touches ya soul... and for even just a moment .... makes you feel  Whole.............Such is life....Oh gee... i know I sound so Crazy....Just sometimes I think clearly enuff to realise ...Life isnot about Me.... Life is about Others... and sometimes ... we have to suck it up... and take one for the Team.... Our families..friends... in the end.. just for ourselves........I often pray...I hope you are having a good day Lord...and that somewhere...someone is doing something to make you Proud you created the Human Race....Because I know that no matter how many children ya have...when just one comes up and Says ..I love ya... or thanks... It makes ya feel .......WONDERMUSS...  brings great JOY....I hope God feels that GREAT...JOY...Tooo....Best wishes, and many Blessing Russ