Entry 2: 10/2/10

Tonight I'm feeling restless and annoyed. I'm sick of not doing anything.  I'm sick of always being at home having to worry constantly how to make money magically appear.  I'm tired of never being able to do anything... going to see a $6.50 movie is so far out of my spending money it is almost comical. 
I always thought my life would get better.  I've been saying since junior high... life has to be better than this.  I guess I'm just sick of waiting for that time to come.  Sometimes I think the rest of my life is going to be this... unhappy, alone and darkness.
Guess I'm not doing to good on that stay positive goal.