I have a very good engine in one truck with a bad body.  I want to yank out the good engine, and put it in a truck that I have found in the junkyard.  I do not really want to drive ever again, but it is the challenge and it will take up my time nicely.  It is the challenge of doing it with the MS.  The truck means a lot to me now, but it will mean more when I am done.  I don't want to speak poorly of my father in law, he is a good guy and is a very hard worker.  Out at his ranch in Wyoming, he has more than twenty old cars.  He has used it as his own private junkyard for years.  I tell him all the time to fix up one of them because if you never do it, you never will.  I have lived a very good portion of my life like that and I have no regrets, but now, it is more important than ever.  There are so many things that are going to be harder now, but that is going to make it that much more worth it.  Only YOU can tell yourself you can or can't do something.  Maybe someday I will get a college diploma just for the heck of it, like that as an example.  Just keep trying, if you don't use it, you'll lose it(that saying goes for everything).  I HAVE MS, there is nothing I can change about that.  I hate it, but I am not going to let it stop me.  Just try harder.  My entire life has been a struggle and it is not going to get any easier.  That was going to be the story anyway, it just happened about twenty or thirty years early.  LIFE IS A CONSTANT STRUGGLE.  If you don't move forward, who will for you?