Endless Pain!

Life is known to me as Endless Pain...
I feel I am sinking into a depression..that I don't know from where to crawl out of..
My husband feels it is because mom has moved here bringing back the memories of Ken's last days..
Maybe it could be...
I cry..but tears do not help
Last night as I help mom get ready for bed..she stops..and says to me "Who are you"..I said "I am Sandi, your daughter"..She cries, I cry, she holds me..she says "Why can't I remember your my daughter"...I said..."it will be okay, mom...
She went to bed...Life full of endless Pain...
The thought crossed my mind this morning..What if I should get Alzheimer's Disease and the only time I remember what is real..Is that I remember that "Ken is dead"..What if that is my memory that I keep alive..
I do not know how it works...alzheimer's..but as I watch my mom...She does not remember that I am her Daughter...I am her first born and she sits and ponders all day as she watches me..I see her watch me and she wonders: "Who Are You?
I say...   Mom, I am your daughter...it' will be okay..I tell her...
Endless Pain