End of vacation

Havent been on in awhile to write anything. But I guess things are improving. Long story short, I ended up standing my ground and didn't see her Monday because of how she was acting and what she wanted. We got in a pretty big fight, but things are still ok between us.
I have come to realize that mopeing around all day feeling sorry for myself isn't going to help me get her back, and it won't help me get over her. It is just going to make me feel worse about everything. So I decided I am going to improve myself, I am going to try to be less irritable, nicer, and I'm even going to go to the gym every day now to try to put on some muscle. I figured I wouldn't earn her back by just sitting around doing nothing. If I can improve myself then maybe she will take me back if thats what I decide that I want at that time, if not then I will be better off in my next relationship. I guess I'm feeling pretty good and pretty optimistic.