End of Day 1/11/2014
So thank God the pain was mostly mild and I only had a few hours of flairup but I was home by then. I bought my friend breakfast then we went to visit his mom. She looks good so I was happy to see that. They have her foot wrapped and she's on an IV drip of antibiotics. They hope she can come home in 2-3 weeks. I hate seeing everyone dealing with so many issues but it is what it is.
I was too tired to excercise today but that's ok. I'll lift weights tomorrow since I don't have anything else going on. My friends are going out tonight. I can't imagine doing that. It just sounds boring. So many people and so much noise...yuck, It's crazy how in my teens/twenties I lived for going out and playing guitar in my band. What the hell happened to me? Getting old sucks.
So Tuesday is the big doc appointment. I have no idea what to expect. Who would think chronic pain would be skin related? I guess it makes sense but it still seems weird. My fear is getting passed along to some other doctor with no answers. I won't get my hopes up but maybe something can go my way for once.
I feel like since 2007 the world ended and no one bothered to tell me. I'm not sure what I should look forward to? Pain relief...yes. But that seems sad where the only thing in life you have to look forward to is to just not have pain anymore. Then what? I always feel like I'm waiting for the next shoe to drop. The joke is the next shoe will drop whether I worry about it or not.
I know my therapist told me not to reflect too much on the past but it's hard seeing my current boring state of life compared to how things use to be. I know you can't go back but I wish I had something more to look forward to in life.
I was too tired to excercise today but that's ok. I'll lift weights tomorrow since I don't have anything else going on. My friends are going out tonight. I can't imagine doing that. It just sounds boring. So many people and so much noise...yuck, It's crazy how in my teens/twenties I lived for going out and playing guitar in my band. What the hell happened to me? Getting old sucks.
So Tuesday is the big doc appointment. I have no idea what to expect. Who would think chronic pain would be skin related? I guess it makes sense but it still seems weird. My fear is getting passed along to some other doctor with no answers. I won't get my hopes up but maybe something can go my way for once.
I feel like since 2007 the world ended and no one bothered to tell me. I'm not sure what I should look forward to? Pain relief...yes. But that seems sad where the only thing in life you have to look forward to is to just not have pain anymore. Then what? I always feel like I'm waiting for the next shoe to drop. The joke is the next shoe will drop whether I worry about it or not.
I know my therapist told me not to reflect too much on the past but it's hard seeing my current boring state of life compared to how things use to be. I know you can't go back but I wish I had something more to look forward to in life.
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