End everything?

I almost had a bit of a breakdown before Saturday.. Started crying (almost stopped) while driving to Scheels Saturday, had a partial breakdown in the bathroom at walmart Saturday.. Tears started leaking Sunday after dropping the cute boy off.. Partial vreakdown in shower right now

I dont think I can do it with the cute boy.. Any of it, relationship.. I'm feeling bad, and uneasy,. I dont want to do this. Not anymore. I dont know how to tell him without breaking him apart.. Or making it seem like its his falt

He is supposed to come over Tuesday.. Left a movie and game here. I dont know what to do.. I cant do this. I cant do this.He said he loved me. I dont know what to do. I like him.. But dont love him. We gotin a heated make out session. With everything i feel guilty and horrible and terrible.. I want to cry