Emptiness

I found "friends" on a site once. We had a close group. I even created a separate chat site we belonged to. But people on internet move on. They find someone to be with, and then they leave the internet friends behind. I enjoyed the time I spent chatting with them. Made me feel important and loved and wanted. Now I am empty inside again. I am married, but had many issues. Most recently caused by me. I got real close to someone and thought she really loved me as the way I loved her. But it was nothing. So now that is over and trying to make her happy and trust me, but this then makes my life sad and hopeless. All I want is for someone to share secrets with and laugh with.