Emotions: TW Poem

Emotions bleed together like cheap dye, All I long to do is cut, cry, run or die.I hold this blade close to my skin, I slide it along slow like a sweet soft kiss.The blood flows slowly down my arm crimson red so so warm, as warm as the love I felt..For you I would live for you I cry to you I would run..without you I die.The pain swirls now like a storm in my soul I let the blood drip down onto the bowl..The bowl of my toilet I throw up from the pain, Pain in my heart and pain in my brain.Pain on my arms pain on my legs I am running out of space to carve in your name.I look to the sky but know there's no one there,No one to listen no one who cares.Where is this "God" That so many speak of..Where is this his mercy?? Where is his love.All that I feel is rain from above, Acid rain that burns my soul my filling my hopes and dreams with holes.These thoughts they spin my head around I stumble fall and hit the ground I wish my mind was not so profound. I wish these thoughts would fucking stop!!Maybe then Id feel on top, standing tall and proud to be the only person I can beMe.