Emotions Taking me Over...
This weekend as W/ Most has been an emotionally exhausting- I Thought i'd take this time to look through my Mom's stuff- I found a lot of things - but the one that i keep going back to is a Lighthouse calender from 2006 ( the year that the cancer won and she passed away.) The last entry she ever made on that calender was My Fiance (Andy"s) Bday.. she had put a big heart around it- and i saw that and just cried... she really did Love him ... So in the middle of having my (moment) - Micheal called me and he says- u know, i've been thinking alot about Andy lately...He thinks Andy knew he was dying and didn't want me to know- so that's why he called me that day- he wanted to have one last conversation and say "I Love You Babe"... When u are in love with a person as much as i was in love with Andy- Losing them really changes you.... and ur outlook on love and life... I TALK TO HIM - EVERYDAYEVEN THOUGH HE'S OH SO FAR AWAYAND EVERY NIGHT- I LAY IN BEDAND HUG THE PILLOW WHERE HE LAYED HIS HEADAND IN MY DREAMS I DRIFT BACK TO THAT FIRST KISSAND THE NIGHT HE PROPOSED TO MEI'M LIVING ON THE LOVE HE LEFT MEAND HE GAVE ME SO MUCH LOVEIN SUCH ALITTLE TIMETHAT KIND OF LOVE IS HARD TO FINDONE DAY WE'LL MEET AGAIN IN THAT SWEET BYE AND BYEBUT TIL WE'RE BACK TOGETHERI'M LIVING ON THE LOVE U LEFT BEHIND....i dedicate that song to Andy ( MY HUNNY BUNNY)... RIP ....
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