Emotionally challenging
I think I'm in for an emotionally challenging week. Monday night my boyfriend broke up with me saying lets just be friends. I'm not sure how I feel about it as neither of us is moving out we will be kinda like roommates. It's weird I feel kinda numb.
Also a customer from work which I've known for years is slowly dying. It started off with him getting gangrene and had to have both his legs amputated. He would phone the shop and I would take his groceries to him and have a little chat. When I took his things to him last week, he told me how he burnt his finger. It started as a small red mark but started eating into his finger, although the doctors said it was healing. Now, last night, one of the other girls I work with had a call from him to take him ciggarettes although he quit smoking months ago. So something was wrong. When she came back she said how he was hugging her and gave her a kiss. His neck has stopped working and when he tries to raise his head he can't breathe or talk. She said she don't think he is going to last long, and I think she is right. It sounds like his body is shutting down. It's upsetting, specially as he was there on his own. I think he knows too because he is making the most of it by having a ciggarette. This has emotionally thrown me as he was one of the nice customers. A regular who would always stop for a chat and laugh and joke with us. But knowing he is like this is heartbreaking.
Also a customer from work which I've known for years is slowly dying. It started off with him getting gangrene and had to have both his legs amputated. He would phone the shop and I would take his groceries to him and have a little chat. When I took his things to him last week, he told me how he burnt his finger. It started as a small red mark but started eating into his finger, although the doctors said it was healing. Now, last night, one of the other girls I work with had a call from him to take him ciggarettes although he quit smoking months ago. So something was wrong. When she came back she said how he was hugging her and gave her a kiss. His neck has stopped working and when he tries to raise his head he can't breathe or talk. She said she don't think he is going to last long, and I think she is right. It sounds like his body is shutting down. It's upsetting, specially as he was there on his own. I think he knows too because he is making the most of it by having a ciggarette. This has emotionally thrown me as he was one of the nice customers. A regular who would always stop for a chat and laugh and joke with us. But knowing he is like this is heartbreaking.
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It hurts to write this down. It pains me to think of him alone while hes like this
aww sweetie, I am sorry to hear about you and your boyfriend. having to face each other everyday because you still live together has got to be rough. I am also really sorry to hear about your customer. it\'s strange... the attachment we can have with certain people that brighten our day. They never really know how much they mean to us, and vice versa until something bad happens. IT SUCKS!
maybe you could see about going to visit him, and just making peace with what is happening.. let him know what you thought of him. I am pretty sure it would mean A LOT to him right now. And help you make peace with this in your heart.
hang in there! (((hugs and strength)))
Thank you sini I saw him last night with his family and we had a chat Im happier knowing they are there and that he is not letting this get him down
I\'m glad you went to see him and were there for him, give him an idea of how loved he was in the world... peoples lives he has touched. And good for you because you got to face what was happening.. it\'ll give you a sense of peace. be strong hun!! (hgs))
Hi I am so sorry to read about you and your boyfriend, I know that it has to be rough living in the same place, bless your young heart.
Thnk you for the nice comments, unfortunately that man I mentioned is in hospital. He had a kidney failure :(