emotional journey

lefe is not always an easy journey...i made a decision and it is going to make my life more difficult in some ways and better in other way$s. i somewhat misunderstood my sister but alwasy knew she would resent me. but yes made the choice and am an adult so what is done is done. i am a very passionate careing kind person and when i hurt others it is not always easy to deal with. she should have told me straight out when i asked her how she felt. not after the fact. now it is too late and i have lost her. she is very very hurt and very very stubborn and it will take her a long long time to get over this. she doesnt know the extent of it because i wasnt totally honest with her but in her head i did her wrong and she will never let me forget it. it is just her nature. but on the other hand i have a very caring passionate friend that is here for me 24-7. so im taking it slow and day by day. and trying to not get overwhelmed with emotions. i cried like little girl when she left today. cause yes i feel and yes im scared but she felt so good. not used to having someone that is as caring and as passionate as me. its kinda scary.. i know i have done wrong and will live with this. noone is in my shoes and judge me as you may. but came from world of hell and feels good to be cared for however wrong it may be

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who can say what is wrong for you? we all walk our own journeys in our own shoes and dare ot judge another, the only person u have to be onest with is ourself and in your own heart and soul and content with,,,,,, your conscience and higher power wll guide you~~ i say blessings and a unconditional hug~ has anyone done what would have been \"ethical\" 100% of the time, im not here to judge , im here unconditionally..... KD