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when i am good i am good and when im down im really down. guess in all reality i dont belong with someone. it felt so good but whenever i get doubtful my head goes crazy with a million worries. very hard time of year. no money for christmas. work beyond sucks cause i am weak and dont stand up for myself. now they are walking all over me and i want look for new job. hello left last job for same reason. grow some and stand up to them. im so so sensitive. whenever i think someone is unhappy with me i loose it. i want to be something to someone just so tired and sad and scared. dont even want to get in the car sunday and go see friend. i feel like hell. why couldnt she just say please i want to be with you for the holiday even if i couldnt go it would still mean the world to me. im so much more than just a booty call and want to be treated so.
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and you should be treated like more then such, i think you made some fine points here in this post, and i saw some self respect showing through,,,, I think itd been nice if she could have/would have said that she wanted to be w you for the holidays ,, was her family close to her ex? Im sorry for the hurt u feel and the inner pain and tormoil,,,,, take time to communicate, and always respect yourself,,,,,, self lov and self respect are two very important things~~ between u and anyone as friend, work or partner,,,,,,,,, always, KD