emotional

when i am good i am good and when im down im really down. guess in all reality i dont belong with someone. it felt so good but whenever i get doubtful my head goes crazy with a million worries. very hard time of year. no money for christmas. work beyond sucks cause i am weak and dont stand up for myself. now they are walking all over me and i want look for new job. hello left last job for same reason. grow some and stand up to them. im so so sensitive. whenever i think someone is unhappy with me i loose it. i want to be something to someone just so tired and sad and scared. dont even want to get in the car sunday and go see friend. i feel like hell. why couldnt she just say please i want to be with you for the holiday even if i couldnt go it would still mean the world to me. im so much more than just a booty call and want to be treated so.