Emerson

the name I once loved I met him when I was 11 I had just gotten over my first miscarriage I tried not to get close to him as he was a boy but how could I not we were so similar yet so different we liked the same games same shows we blushed if we were caught in the same room together I learned to trust him he was my everything we knew the ins and outs of eachother there was no one like him as we grew up the closer we got we started to date officially at 14 unofficially we had been together since we met we kept our relationship a secret as he's my stepfathers cousin he was only a few months younger than I was I was his first kiss we planned how we would marry and have children when I got pregnant it surprised me I have had the implant for a little over a year then so it made no sense to me nun the less I told him he got so excited accepted that we were young but we were in love or at least so I thought for a guy excited of becoming a father and getting married he had one hell of a way of showing it we had an argument where I told him I would raise the child on my own without him speaking as though I had just found out he cheated on me with a girl I absolutely hated so I wanted him out of my life that was until the severe abdominal pain began and the blood once again rolled down my inner thighs down my legs to the ground all I wanted in that moment was for him to hold me for him to tell me he loved me when I reached out to him and told him the news he acted as if it didn't faze him "it's not like it matters really I guess we got lucky right" were his words for a month I thought of how cruel and insensitive he had been but none of that matters really cuz he came back and I let him in only to be cheated on once again I pushed him away only for him to begin the chase once again when I didn't fall for it he got so mad I had never seen him that mad before and the thing I had never expected was for him to slap me across the face he's tried to get me again but I can't let him back I must be strong, right?