Ed's birthday
Hi everyone,
Thanks for all the support & encouragement during the month of September. Debbie, Corrie's mom, shared with me that she had read when angel dates and birthdays fall closely together one may enter into a "season of grief". It helped me a lot to understand why I have been feeling so badly. Even the start up of school was rough for me. I work year round as we have some classrooms open in the summer but in the fall the entire twelve classrooms open. Usually I look forward to all the staff returning and the kids are adorable. But this year it was a struggle. But I will be fine, with God's grace, one day at a time.
Ed's birthday was peaceful. Just me, Ken, my DIL and my grandchildren went to the cemetery ( it was pouring but the rain let up just as we arrived at Ed's resting spot), then we had dinner at my house and had a cake in Ed's honor. We, of course, were sad but it was a gentle day. My ex husband called and he is hurting and feeling guilty and I did what I could to comfort him but honestly it is hard to absorb his grief too. He lives 2 hours away so he didn't want to travel to have dinner with us but I think it helped him to be invited. Neither my brother or my narcissistic mother called on Ed's birthday. No mention of my son or a call to see how me or Josh or Christina are doing. I don't know why this surprises me. Eddie did receive lots of hugs & birthday wishes from my friends here and it helps me immensely to know none of you will forget him. Chelsea sent me a beautiful poem and emailed and Donna, (my adopted daughter who was one of Ed's best friends) called and lit a candle for Ed - she had to work or would have joined us for dinner.
Dearest Ed, I miss you so...I know, I know, I tell you everyday. I do believe that you are enveloped in peace, perfection and divine love and that gives me peace. Josh & Christina and I will continue to help each other and we will make you proud. Iysabella is crawling now and she will know you through us. I love you, xoxo Mom
Heavenly Father, thank you for the 37 birthdays I spent with Ed. I was so blessed to have him that long and I grieve that he didn't have a longer life but I entrust him to You. Please tell him I love him and I stand on your promise that I will see him again one day. Please continue to help me to help Josh & Christina and help us continue to heal. In Jesus name. Amen
Thanks for all the support & encouragement during the month of September. Debbie, Corrie's mom, shared with me that she had read when angel dates and birthdays fall closely together one may enter into a "season of grief". It helped me a lot to understand why I have been feeling so badly. Even the start up of school was rough for me. I work year round as we have some classrooms open in the summer but in the fall the entire twelve classrooms open. Usually I look forward to all the staff returning and the kids are adorable. But this year it was a struggle. But I will be fine, with God's grace, one day at a time.
Ed's birthday was peaceful. Just me, Ken, my DIL and my grandchildren went to the cemetery ( it was pouring but the rain let up just as we arrived at Ed's resting spot), then we had dinner at my house and had a cake in Ed's honor. We, of course, were sad but it was a gentle day. My ex husband called and he is hurting and feeling guilty and I did what I could to comfort him but honestly it is hard to absorb his grief too. He lives 2 hours away so he didn't want to travel to have dinner with us but I think it helped him to be invited. Neither my brother or my narcissistic mother called on Ed's birthday. No mention of my son or a call to see how me or Josh or Christina are doing. I don't know why this surprises me. Eddie did receive lots of hugs & birthday wishes from my friends here and it helps me immensely to know none of you will forget him. Chelsea sent me a beautiful poem and emailed and Donna, (my adopted daughter who was one of Ed's best friends) called and lit a candle for Ed - she had to work or would have joined us for dinner.
Dearest Ed, I miss you so...I know, I know, I tell you everyday. I do believe that you are enveloped in peace, perfection and divine love and that gives me peace. Josh & Christina and I will continue to help each other and we will make you proud. Iysabella is crawling now and she will know you through us. I love you, xoxo Mom
Heavenly Father, thank you for the 37 birthdays I spent with Ed. I was so blessed to have him that long and I grieve that he didn't have a longer life but I entrust him to You. Please tell him I love him and I stand on your promise that I will see him again one day. Please continue to help me to help Josh & Christina and help us continue to heal. In Jesus name. Amen
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