Eating disorder Hell

Hello all,

today is another stressful day dealing with my Atypical Anorexia and purging, anxiety. I'm not sure why I suffer but I do know I can never eat in peace. There's always some level of turmoil afterwards or during each meal. This is why I find myself skipping meals or just not eating at all. I wish I could enjoy food and my day like a normal person. However, there's so much anxiety surrounded with food and guilt.