Eating

Yesterday I still couldn't say hi to him, but at the moment I'm not sure if he is the one. He is 6 ft or 6 ft 2, where I am only 5 ft 4. I must be the height of a dwarf in his eyes. And he is still so intimidating to me! So yeah I'm not sure about anything!And if I still haven't found anyone in a few years I will turn to online dating, because in the end it may be the only way I can find anyone.But the worst of all is that I can't stop eating chocolate, its like my body wants to be fat! I want to stay 56 kgs! (and if possible below it!) It really sucks because I feel so fat lately, I wish I could die. No one will want me now because they wouldn't want to be around someone who isn't happy with there body. Yeah internet dating is looking more and more appealing.