Easter Weekend

5 years ago on Easter Weekend, Ryan passed over.. Except Easter was April 14, 15, 16th, five years ago.. Easter hasn't been on that weekend since...I remember telling Ryan & Erica, Easter was my favorite holiday. Making up easter basket with really pretty cellophane paper with spring, nature, and life was coming around again, year after year.. I have a picture with Ryan 5yrs old, Erica 1 yr old sitting on the floor next to their easter baskets and they both had chicken pox..When I came across that Picture, it was like it was yesterday..You know, I don't know why in those younger years we always wanted time to pass. NOW, I wish we could go back in time..I pray so much for all of us Moms to become Happy with where we are today!!!Everyday!!! I'm soooo tired of feeling so heart broken... Even though its been 5 yrs now, I am way better now.. Once the leaves start to grow and the grass and flowers come out, I go on feeling alive with Ryan right by my side, doing what I'm doing at the time.. I play & feel full of love, and know his spirit is inside me again, it makes me happy thinking, especially feeling he is alive in well in me.. I feel my best when I feel him inside me, bc he is me..You Know!!!!
Happy 5 yrs in Heaven on Easter Weekend, my love, Ryan, I Loves you sooooooooo muccccch! It kills me, not having you here with me..I still to this day cannot ACCEPT YOU NOT HERE ON EARTH WITH ME & YOUR FAMILY.. I know so very much inside my soul, You Ryan went before me and are up there in heaven to over look your family & friends..I really feel this, I know you, my bestest Son Ever... I missssssss yooooou sooooo mucccccch, LOVE YOU, MOM

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KellyLee105
KellyLee105

The weather has been so crappy & wet, its making things worst.. Waiting for nature to come alive. nothing here yet...........
KandL
KandL

Hello Kelly, it snowed & rained here today and the weather just adds to the feelings of sadness. I wish you peace on this Easter weekend as I know Easter has got to be difficult for you since Ryan left for Heaven on Easter weekend and no matter what the actual date Easter falls on - its got to be hard. I wish you peace as you feel sweet Ryan\'s spirit inside you. Love and gentle hugs, Linda
rcoco
rcoco

Aw, what a sweet message to your precious son. I miss Christopher beyond all words. There is no finish line on this path. I hope your Easter is filled with peace and grace....love, Rebecca
biowoman
biowoman

I am glad that after all this time that you feel Ryan within you...within your heart...it is comforting...and please know that I wish only peace for you this Easter weekend...love and hugs...Karen
MartinsMom
MartinsMom

I know Easter must be hard on you and my love and thoughts are with you Kelly. I know how hard it is to miss a child and I miss my son all the time. It is so hard to accept they are not here. Love Camille
KimRW
KimRW

Kelly, I know that it is hard with these anniversarys or birthdays fall on holidays. It\'s like a double whammy. Chris was born around Easter, and some times his birthday would fall on Easter. Holidays are just hard! Thinking of you and your precious Ryan as you go through these days. Love, Kim
MitchellsMom
MitchellsMom

Dearest Kelly, I woke up with you and Ryan on my mind, thinking about Easter,dates and the relationship between those dates and the holidays they fall on or around.Mitch was killed May 18,06,four days after Mother\'s Day and although the actual dates may differ, Mother\'s Day is always a double wammy for me.I know Easter will always be hard for you even though the dates may change.I am so very happy you feel Ryan right by your side....such an amazing feeling.I hope tomorrow is gentle on you....I will say a special prayer for you before I go to sleep tonight...Wishing You Sweet Dreams, Love,Charlene
Missinglisa
Missinglisa

Easter must be so difficult for you now. It is for me as Lisa\'s birthday is on April 20. Spring is supposed to bring life but for me it is just sad right now. I feel hope that I continue to feel Lisa with me.
I wish you a peaceful Easter.
Love and hugs,
Marlene
CorysMom
CorysMom

May each day be filled with the presence of Ryan beside you and in your heart. Many happy thoughts are sent out to you. Love, Peggy
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

Such a beautiful journal filled with precious memories of Ryan. It struck me when you said that about our concept of time when our children are younger. What we wouldn\'t give for a \"do over\" in many areas of our lives. Rebirth, renewal is for us each day we awaken and always Kelly, when I read your journals that is what they offer. You, my friend are the \"real deal\" and your vulnerability, openness and speaking of what is in your heart now offers so much HOPE. Thank you sweet friend for being you, through and through. With love to your beloved Ryan and to his incredible mom! :) XO Joanie
connilla
connilla

It\'s weird how so many of us lost our children on or around so many holidays. It only magnifies the sadness. It\'s hard enough to lose a child on a regular day but somehow it seems worse on or around a holiday. My Melissa was taken a few days before Thanksgiving. She was buried the day after Thanksgiving in 2008. All the holidays don\'t have the same meaning anymore but especially Thanksgiving and Christmas for me now. I am so sorry that Ryan passed at Easter time and my arms are hugging you at this time to help a little bit. xoxoxo Connie
SusanLarson
SusanLarson

It is a sad day for you. I will be thinking about you, Love Susan
deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m so glad you feel Ryan\'s presence. May it carry you through today. Love and tight hugs, Pat
deleted_user
deleted_user

Sending you all my love my friend.. you are such an amazing woman so full of life and fun... the pain will remain inside us forever and we must learn somehow how to move forward as hard as it is...
deleted_user
deleted_user

My thoughts are with you....Ryan was blessed with a loving and sweet mom. He IS a part of you that is already in heaven....that is the most peaceful way I can think of our boys being away from us....gone to Heaven. What a way to spend the holiest of holidays!! Love and Hugs, dale...brandon\'s mom