Easter.....insights galore !

After keeping a "lid" on all the anger I have ever felt these past years, it came bubbling to the surface on Easter Sunday morning. Oh, I had been frustrated & in tears on Saturday but nothing like the "hell" that broke out at 4 a.m. on Sunday. As luck would have it....God placed me in my neighborhood "old" church and it was obvious to the Minister that my sitting alone with my head down that I was "in pain". He spent some time with me....just long enough that we both didn't drown in the morass and I did my best to be part of the rest of the service.
My evening meditation practice cleared away the last of the cobwebs after I visited a friend in hospital and had a nice dinner and a 30 min soak in a hot bath. All then, seemed right with the world.
It occurred to me that I don't make time for fun and laughter. Seem so driven and focused on fixing all the things that are wrong with me. My Mom has been dead for +10 years but my inner critic has taken on her role. That critic/slave driver needs to be silenced.