early

I got up at like 4:30, and I could have easily fallen back asleep. I don't know why but I just got distracted and didn't. Maybe I can here in a minute. My sleep cycle is deeply connected to how well my mental health is. not getting enough sleep is the main thing I worry about these days because I always feel terrible at the end of the day.
 
There's a lot of stress and conflict going on in my family right now. My grandpa recently died, and now we're struggling to care for my grandmother, who's mental state is deteriorating more every day. My dad has to organize her pills for her, and every night he has to go make sure she takes them, wash her dishes, and get her ready for bed. My dad is so busy. He comes home sometimes a little drunk or whatever and he jumps down our throat for any reason. It's like he just tries to unload his stress on me and mom by being mean, but it really just makes him feel worse. My parents are fighting often and it bothers me. I'm getting to where I take my meds before dark so I can sleep through it.