Dying on the inside

Today is Monday 8/10/2015. I feel horrible. I feel anxious and nervous and sick to my stomach. David is off from work tonight I don't know if he will remain in the home all night or who he will go out with if he leaves. I always thought our love and communication would get us through anything and now here we are. He wants out and I am a mess. I feel like everything is falling apart and I am not going to recover. Like I let my husband down, I let myself down, I let my daughter down......David wants to have a talk tonight, he wants to go on vacation with me and my daughter in 3 weeks (prepaid) I just don't know how all of these things are so normal to him when I honestly just want to lay in bed all day every day. I guess we'll see what happens tonight.