dying inside

4 days no meds :( im a mess my mom and me are fighting alot again and my brothers are getting on my nerves with every word they say and i just wanna cut so badly i cry all the time and i feel like something else is taking over me and its killing me and idk what else to do... my friends have enuf to deal with so im not tellin anyone here about it ill tell my counselor tommorrow but nothing she can really do since i cant get meds til the 30th... this is horrible i just wanna die