Due Date tomorrow
Tomorrow is my due date and I am so scared. It has really taken a toll on me the last few couple of days. I miss my son so much. It is so hard to try a live a normal life. I try to go and be happy but something is missing. I just don't feel right. We are going to plant him a memorila garden tomorrow. It is a hard day for me because it is also my husbands birthday. Sometimes he thinks we should try to have another baby and that will make me happy. I want to try but am very scared. I don't know what I want anymore. I dont know what will make me happy and not feel so alone and empty....
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I am so sorry for your loss...I do want you to know that there is also a site For Mommies Only...this is a group of moms that lost their children while they were young. You might find more moms that have experiences that help you even more than us moms. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you...Karen
So I took all this time to comment on this last night and just as I finished the site went down lol
I hope you are able to find some peace today and enjoy your husband\'s birthday. I wish I could remember what I said last night it was probably way better than what I\'m saying now. Try to enjoy your day with your husband and remember that something good happened on this day, your husband was born and without him you never would have known the love of your son.
I am praying with you today. I know exactly how you feel...
I\'m thinking of you today....
I saw your comment in the sidebar about your anxiety, and how you need to focus on breathing, etc. I wanted you to know that you are not the only one having that problem. I find sometimes during the day that I haven\'t taken a real breath in a long time. This has led to major headaches for me. I also find that I can\'t breathe when DH is kissing me or hugging me, etc. I don\'t know why.....I hope today was able to bring you some peace. I\'m so sorry about your loss.