Dry

I want to cry but the tears won't come because I can remember 9 months ago I cried until I was numb until I could not feel them became desperate just to have him here to the fact that I accepted that you let someone into his personal space that we share within such a short period of time heart still hurts inside but I remember how nonchalant he was then and it feels like he is now and that was because there was someone else I can't explain the feeling of wanting to cry because emotionally I am hurt but my eyes are dry.