Drugs drinks and GO TO HELL HATERS

Broken I am choking back a ton of pillsOnly know what some areThe rest is like a grab bag of drugsNever know what you got or what is to comeHold on tight and enjoy the rideOne more sad yet wonderful highmy vision blurs I chug down a beerDrugs and alcohol best friends so dearThey never abandon me never stop listeningI just surrender to them and life is shining and glisteningLike a golden ring a size too small they hold me so tightMake the darkness brighter and the wrongs seem so right I am tempted to turn back to all of my old demonsMore and more drinks and enough drugs to see Jesus I just wanna get high till I fly or die Maybe a bit of both but leave trouble far behind I could really do so muchI could be so damn greatBut no one cares or wants to help me, Just great!!so now it may be too late.I may not be able to climb out of this pit But the thought of giving up just makes me sickBut things keep adding upAnd keep getting worseI try to pull myself out of my coffinIm knocked back by the shaking of the speeding hearseNext thing I remember I am in the bottom of my graveAs I try to dig myself out the dirt tightens around my legI feel like its over like this is the endI am not sure if I can start fighting againI will do my best, Try my hardest and darnedest But I honestly feel like a dog on a harness Being pulled back from my goals pulled back into the darknessDoes nobody see that I really want to do well...I guess I have to keep fighting...The enemy can go straight to hell!!