Driving Without Headlights

Too much going on and the Chargers blowing another one, I've sort of lost focus on my project here.  But I suppose that is to be expected.  After all, when we travel this road, we should expect anything to happen.  After resuming my Zoloft, the crazyness is dissipating, and a calmness of sorts is reappearing in my brain.  That's a relief, because the highs and lows were getting a little too high and then a little too low.  I don't like drugs, but I guess Zoloft isn't that kind of a drug anyway.  And if it helps me keep both oars in the water and paddling straight, I suppose I'll take it willingly. 
That being said, I'm just going to hang out for a day or two and let my meds do what they do and when the "writer's block" eases and the inspiration strikes me as it always does, I'll return with a vengeance and continue to document my process of re-establishing my relationship with the Father.  He has been real good to me of late, and I have actually made the commitment to myself to put Him before me and all others, and let him guide me through what time he is going to give me to hang out on this earth.  It's a huge step for me, but He is doing a pretty perfect job of driving these past few weeks.  It's time for me to take my foot off of the breaks and my hands off the steering wheel and move out of His way.  Don't know where we're going yet, but it can't be worse than where I was headed when I was driving.  Not a song....but it will make you sing.......
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iy89KTQkcQQ

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driveler
driveler

Joe, I can appreciate your journey, and yes is is always best when we let HIM do the driving. I have been on Zoloft for nearly 10 years, and it made a huge difference for me (I was having severe panic attacks). Like you I do not like having to take drugs, but I tried going off of it for awhile once (with the doctor\'s permission) and it did not work out so well. As long as I remembered to take St. John;s wart three times a day I was ok, buit if I didn\'t.....! I have heard that getting lots of exercise can help but have not yet had enough energy (or is it self-discipline that is lacking?--I\'ll never tell :-) to try it. Thanks for sharing! If you actually suceed in keeping \"both oars in the water\" let me know LOL.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi Joe - I always love your posts they inspire me. Glad you\'re back on your medication. Hope to hear from you soon.

Hugs, Carla
doyew
doyew

The Rich Mullins message is very good. We can never go wrong if we let God lead us. Wishing you His guidance today and every day -
Doye
deleted_user
deleted_user

Isn\'t it great to build faith like that? It is the only thing that helps me. This experience can either make or break you. I have decided to let it make me a better person. I don\'t want to be a bitter old widow. One who kids make fun of. I want to be the kind of widow that the kids adore and love. I am getting ready for that role come Halloween. I don\'t know what I should dress up like. A Witch? I don\'t think so, I think I will be an Angel. Hugs~Shelley
OnMyOwn2010
OnMyOwn2010

Great Post Joe...as always...we had those long dirt roads where I grew up in the Pacific NW...we used to do the same thing...& Shelley ~ you will be a beautiful Angel ~ I have a feeling you already are one... E
deleted_user
deleted_user

You need your Zoloft to help reduce your Psychological pain during this time. Stay with it...at least for now...
deleted_user
deleted_user

I had a friend once who lived in the desert SW. She would open the car\'s sunroof(she called it a moonroof), poke her head up & drive down the center lane! Nowadays we look askance @ such stupidity,but then it was daring.You take of & have a good rest now,Joe.Hugs.