Drained of life

I feel like life has slowly been bleeding out of me. Now I am almost empty, with no desire or hope left in me. It has not been any one thing that has broght me down, more like death by a thousand cuts. One thing after another has happened, each taking a bit of life away from me, and nothing at all happens to replenish it. There are many thhings I long to do, but I am not able to do any of them. Normally I would go to the beach this time of year, or take a trip to the mountains. That always renews me. But I can't go anywhere now because my father is in poor health and need me here. He is elderly and in a rehab center now. Pretty much all I do go to work, go to the rehab center to visit my dad, and try to keep up with my chores. There are a lot also a lot of work that I need to get done, things that are broken, chores that have piled up. So I have no time to do anything that might improve my life. I have no chance to do anything enjoyable and no opportunities to meet people. I really only have one friend here, and she is out of town on vacation now. Also two of my best friends here on DS, the ones I spoke to the most. suddenly disappeared from DS a little over a month ago. They have never returned. That has been a big lose and has take its toll too.
I am hoping that within the next few weeks my dad health will improve as he continues to recover from surgery, and I can then try to get back into life again. I am hoping that my missing friends will return. They have both disappeared from here for long periods before, only to return. But until that happens, my life continue to be empty.