Dream

I had a dream of Ryan, it was sooooo reeeaall!!.... He was watching TV in his bedroom. The thing is, it wasn't his bedroom,  B/C  the bedroom was across from mine, and there is not a bed across from mine.  I got out of bed, heard a TV on, walked in the room across from mine, there he was, alive and well.  He looked exactly the way he was before he died. He was laying on top of the bed, fully dressed ,he had his bright blue polo shirt on. He got up, walked over to me, I said "Are you alive"?.. He said "Yes".. I said "Are you really really alive", "And your never gonna leave me again". He said, "No, I'm never gonna leave you"...The dream was so vivid, so real. When I woke up, it was minutes until I realized it was a dream.... I laid in bed, thinking, feeling sad...The good thing is, I knew if I laid in bed any longer, I would of gotten more depressed, gone back to sleep, the more I slept, the more depressed I would become, on and on and on and on...That  basically was the life I was living, the first 2 years.. I lost around 40 pounds, I was so weak from not sleeping right, not eating good..Soooo, I finally came to my senses..I had to fight for my life, my daughter was unhappy, actually, it affected my whole Family... I knew my family need me, so I had to get better, before someone else in my family dies. I wouldn't of been strong enough, if something really bad happened. I had to get out of myself, out of my head. In my head is a horrible place to be....My 3rd year became much better slow by slow, one day at a time. I had to ask God for help. I ask Him, "Please God, Help me get through today, only for today". Don't think of tomorrow, or yesterday, ONLY FOR TODAY. I have been doing this daily, one day at a time, for the last 8 months. I feel so much better... I want to continue these dreams, so I can always be with him, always forever.....ASK GOD FOR HELP!!!..It also will happen to you, JUST ASK...... OK, I have to get up, and get busy, its the only way to live life, the way Ryan wants me to. I really think dreams have meaning to them. I believe in my dream, Ryan was giving me a message, to let me know he is still alive, and it is beyond human vision. I hope everyone of you have a good dream, to comfort you as I did.. Love to you my friends, Kelly    

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deleted_user

The dream is wonderful. What a comfort that has to be.
One day at a time, is all we can ask for.
Hugs, Barbara
ihart
ihart

Kelly,
I am so happy for you. I have only had one connection with Richard in a dream and it was so real that I even experienced his scent and that is what made it more then just a dream. Hugs, Inga
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deleted_user

you are an inspiration...you had the dream I prayed for but did not receive last night...but there is always tonight, right? I know my son is waiting for me in heaven....I pray to see him there..to have that peace. thank you for sharing your dream...love and peace ..Dale...Brandon\'s Mom
dougadoug
dougadoug

How wonderful. I have had some signs from Doug, but I would love to have a dream - actually see him, hear him. And I agree, inside my head is a terrible place to be. Wish there was a key to turn off the brain. Take care, Sue
biowoman
biowoman

Kelly...you are absolutely right! You have to choose to go on. It would be so easy to just give up...live in darkness. But...we want to live not exist...and you are demonstrating how we can do this...good for you...I am sooo happy for you that Ryan came to see you...love and hugs...Karen
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am happy for you that your son reached out to you in a dream. My daughter did that same thing to me a few months after she passed. What a wonderful feeling. I haven\'t had another dream like that since that time but the one dream has stayed with me alll these years . . . like she left a part of her with me with she left to comfort me. It has helped, believe me. Here\'s to good dreams for all of us. Love and peace to you. BarbaraWawa
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so happy for you that you can be with your son thru your dreams.I pray for the day that I can have Jason back if only in my dreams.I havent seen him or dreamt of him yet maybe I am trying to hard. Ineed to see him but he wontcome. I am really glad for you though and hope he visits you often. love and hugs Bev
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deleted_user

I am so glad you had a dream... sending you love and support my love..
KimRW
KimRW

Kelly, I love that you had this dream and that it brought you comfort. I have seen signs from Chris, but I don\'t dream often. I wish he would come to me in a dream. Thanks for sharing ! Hugs, Kim
Robin4
Robin4

I\'m so happy when moms get to dream of their sons. I\'ve only ever had one and it wasn\'t a pleasant dream. So I\'m so happy for you. I love your attitude. We do have to live in the present and make each day count. I have many more good days than bad now and though I think of my son several times a day, I can smile much more often. Love to you. Robin
BinkyH
BinkyH

I have only had a few dreams of Michael and his presence in them was fleeting. They left me feeling sadder upon awakening so I don\'t look forward to them. Like you, I am trying to take better care of my health. I drank too much and ate too little this past year and now my blood pressure is in stage 2 danger zone. I am realizing that I have to take better care of myself for my remaining child. He worries and wants me to take vitamins. I am trying for his sake. Love to you, B
Mary4408
Mary4408

This truly sounds like a \"visit\" which is a blessing. I WISH Matt would visit me. You need to listen to what he said...I will never leave you again. He is there - all of our children are here ~ they are just on another plane of being. They do watch over us and must watch for their signs.
Read this -
\"In the bottom of an old pond lived some grubs who could not understand why none of their group ever came back after crawling up the lily stems to the top of the water. They promised each other that the next one who was called to make the upward climb would return and tell what had happened to him. Soon one of them felt an urgent impulse to seek the surface; he rested himself on the top of a lily pad and went through a glorious transformation which made him a dragonfly with beautiful wings. In vain he tried to keep his promise. Flying back and forth over the pond, he peered down at his friends below. Then he realized that even if they could see him they would not recognize such a radiant creature as one of their number.
The fact that we cannot see our friends or communicate with them after the transformation which we call death is no proof that they cease to exist.\"
by Walter Dudley Cavert
Courtsmom
Courtsmom

Dear Kelly, what a wonderful dream..I\'m still waiting to have a good dream with Courtney. I think she\'s waiting for me to not be completely mad at her for leaving me. I\'m still working on it..Love to you, Mary Kay
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deleted_user

thank you for sharing this. i am behind in some of my reading for DS and just saw this now. thank you very much, love, donna
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deleted_user

Wonderful dream. Glad you found comfort in it. Love and hugs Cathy